my blank page
doesn’t even care about me
the love is in a puddle on the floor
I hate the word NO I believe in angels
my brothers and sisters all played by the ocean
in Malaekahana every summer as far as I can remember
I remember I love my daughter I want to farm
vanilla orchids and have dogs and pigs I will
do anything for my friends give my limbs & my shirt
I will die if another person hurts me
drop dead like gun shot or machete
I like being alone knowing someone out there loves me
I like sugar, sweet mangoes, hot chocolate,
and long kissing I am a spirit junky
this is my mother this is my father
these are my brothers this is me
this is my sister this is my memory
so far beyond the ocean older brothers in an older time
I want to zap people who drive too fast
I feel I’m gonna die when people say “I love you”
I want to move mountains
with my love does it even matter?
the love that is given? I wish
I could fish with a cooler and beer and
peacefulness and time for the breeze to carry
away all my wrongdoings
my name means precious lei kuu lei makamae
I was raped by two men when I was 16 years old
and I still don’t know how I got there
I was almost in this play and wore black tights
Nile Fair was the worst friend I ever had
she gave me fear like a disease
my feet are beautiful
